Well, it's been awhile since I've last posted to this dang thing... What has happened? I'm 18 years old now and as is tradition in my family I was given cash instead of gifts. This allowed me to feed my obsession of Jeffrey Dahmer. Online I bought the book, "The Jeffrey Dahmer Story: An American Nightmare" by Don Davis. Although the book had a slight textbook feel to it, I was very satisfied with it as it kept my attention (I read the entire thing straight through in one night) and was very informative. I also ordered the dvd of the Discovery Channel's show "Most Evil" which features Dr. Michael Stone and his 22 levels of evil. That is my all-time favorite show and I very much enjoyed catching episodes that I hadn't seen in ages.
On a personal note.... I'm starting school at the end of the month, I'll be a part-time college student. As a result of this, I can no longer babysit my niece and nephew for my older sister. She can't afford daycare for a two year old and a six month old, so she is quitting her job and her family is moving in with my parents and myself. There will be a grand total of seven people living in a three bedroom, one bathroom ranch. I'm not looking forward to it... Don't get me wrong, I love my family to death, but there are times where my kindness is taken advantage of and I feel like shutting myself in a closet and breaking down.
There are times when I feel like I have to do everything around the house. I'm thankful that I have parents that are in no rush to have me leave the nest... My father has told me many times that I can stay at home as long as I'd like, that I'd always have a roof over my head and tampons under the bathroom sink.... For the past two years, while my mother has battled breast cancer for a third time I have done all of the grocery shopping (which entails loading and unloading them), all of the cooking, all of the dishes, all of my laundry, my mother's laundry and at times even my father's laundry. On top of those general responsibilities, I have my own personal ones, like keeping my room clean and cleaning my cat's litter box. There are times where I feel a little bitter, that I've been robbed of my adolescence.
I wouldn't change anything if I could go back though, because if I weren't around to take care of my family, then things would be so much more difficult than they are here and I can't bear to think about that.
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