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26 August 2010 @ 01:07 am
Things have been much better, but I've been far too lazy to type shit down here... LOL. Anywho, I'm alive and well and have been hanging around here like a creeper. That and Tumblr... I'm thewhitechickoj over there. CREEP ON!

10 March 2010 @ 08:16 pm
Life really hasn't been going as I've been wanting it to, but does it ever? It's been one year since I've received my GED (having dropped out senior year in Sept 09 to help with my mother) and I had planned to enlist in the army to earn money for school, but with their strict recruiting standards, I've been jumping through hoops just to get in. It's been taking so long and I've passed on so many opportunities because of it, that I've decided just to put it all on hold. Why won't the army just let me in? I'm a perfectly healthy 18 year old female with absolutely no criminal record and have met the educational requirements. The reason? When I was 15, my mother thought I was clinically depressed and had my doctor put me on anti-depressants. I've been off of that medication for almost two years now and since it is required by law that I tell the military that I had in fact taken any sort of medication for mood disorders (i.e. depression), I need to receive a waiver from a doctor at MEPS. I've already had my physical and had taken my ASVAB, but that wait for a waiver is what has recruiters putting me on the back burner.

Not wanting to do nothing for any longer, I've decided to start classes at a local college just so I can at least say my life is on the right track. What do I want to do? I want to go into military nursing as a career. First things first, take all the prerequisite courses for nursing school. Once I have those finished, I plan to try for the army again since those classes will have me up to my eyeballs in student debt. I have done my FAFSA and do not apply for any of the student aid, only student loans. Apparently an unemployed teenager living in a household of an annual income of $42,000 should be able to afford the thousands of dollars for just one semester of classes. That's another thing, the economy in the state of Oregon sucks at the moment. People aren't wanting to hire 18 year olds with a high school education and no prior job experience and the few that are (i.e. McDonald's or Taco Bell), just aren't hiring. I have a funny feeling in the pit of my stomach.

What's the worst part of it all? Well, aside from my pointless rants on this pathetic little blog that I call my own, I really don't have anyone to voice my concerns to that won't throw everything I say into my face. My mother was the one person I could talk to about absolutely everything there was to talk about. Since her death in October 2009, I can't help but feel that I need to bottle everything up inside. I try to talk to my friends, but although they listen, they can't relate to what I say. They're all from higher upper middle class families that do not have a financial worry in the world.

This summer, my family and I are going to Ohio to visit family. Maybe over there I'll be able to find something to do... Live with one of my brothers' or my grandparents' house while working to go to class. Things must be better over there than in Oregon, but you never know.

Thanks for reading my mindless drabble. It feels good to just type it all out.
12 January 2010 @ 12:46 am
Haven't been on here in a while... Had a great Christmas with the family as well as a happy new year... Other than that I really have nothing to say! lol. Okay, I guess I do have some more stuff to say...

I saw Daybreakers on Friday when it came out and I thought it was entertaining... but I'm a borderline horror movie aficionado and there were numerous points in it that made me go, "What the hell?" Someone I noticed in that film was a man by the name of Michael Dorman and by notice, I mean gawk. I thought he was gorgeous! ;)

So now I'm off to see what other films he has been in which may be difficult because most of his films are Australian.
29 November 2009 @ 12:55 am
Feast Your Eyes...Collapse )
Current Location: bedroom
Current Music: "Nailing the Kelvin"
23 November 2009 @ 08:42 pm

Star Trek (2009) - Spock/Uhura - Can We Go Back by Kelly Clarkson
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16 November 2009 @ 10:25 pm
Nothing much going on, to be honest... I'm waiting on my new army recruiter to call me any day now to see if the doctors at MEPS will accept my medical pre-screen this time around. The only reason they denied it last time was because I had just been off anti-depressants for almost exactly a year and they wanted me to wait another six months. I hope it goes through, I'm really wanting to go to basic training so I can really get my life jumpstarted.

Since I don't have a job and can't afford to go to school... I've been dilly-dallying. At 18 years old, it's really driving me insane. What have I done? I've been playing Heroes Survival and creating a website to host fanfiction and whatever the hell I want. Haha...
12 November 2009 @ 02:02 am
30 October 2009 @ 12:37 am
I'm a huge Zachary Quinto fan, thanks to my über obsession with both Heroes and Star Trek. Anywho, a wonderful person somewhere in the world made a GIF of Zach's character Sylar from this last episode. God, he's such a cutie...

zachary quinto,sylar,heroes 
There are times when the fan girl within cannot contain herself and it's embarassing. LOL!
Current Music: "Run This Town" by Jay-Z, Rihanna and Kanye West
27 October 2009 @ 08:23 pm
I haven't been on here in a while, I've been at home trying to get used to my family's new sense of normality. On October 10, 2009 my mother passed away after years of battling breast cancer. She went peacefully, simply having gone to sleep and never awoke. It was tough, but she had been sick for so long that everybody was able to prepare themselves for the heartbreak. Her funeral was on October 16, 2009 at the Willamette National Cemetery for veterans and spouses, she's in a nice place where she can see Mt. Hood and Mt. St. Helens. I'm going to miss her dearly, hell, I already do, but now I know she's not in any pain, that she's not suffering and that she's happy.
27 October 2009 @ 08:18 pm
If a friend cracks a corny joke, do you force yourself to laugh politely? What about if it's your boss or teacher? Do you get annoyed if someone else pretends to be amused?

Corny jokes, eh? When a friend or family member is the culprit, I tend to give a sarcastic laugh that turns into a groan. A teacher or family member? Oh boy, I must admit that I usually chuckle politely as to stay on his/her's good side.  :)